Quick update on going Slow

Today is my third day on the Slow Carb D*&^, here’s a quick update on how I’m going:

I weighed myself this morning and I’m a kilo down from 2 days ago. I know I know what the response will be – in 2 days weight can fluctuate in a big way. But, for me, fluctuations only go up. Then they come back down to what I’m always at. That’s it. They never, ever go down and them come up. So a kilo down is a big thing for me.

I’m finding the protein at every meal a bit of a challenge. I’m not used to eating this much meat.

Since I’ve started here’s what I’ve been eating:

Day 1:

Roast chicken, salad and red kidney beans (I started at dinner)

Day 2:

2 small egg and vegetable muffins with red kidney beans

Roast chicken, salad and red kidney beans

Afternoon snack: Can tuna and beans, handful of snowpeas

Steak, salad and red kidney beans

Evening snack: 1 small egg and vegetable muffin

Day 3:

2 small egg and vegetable muffins, with lentils

(Note: I made a batch of egg and vegetable muffins in advance for breakfasts)

I had the snacks because I was hungry a few hours after my meal, but the eating plan advises to have 4 meals a day (a small lunch late afternoon).

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Overcoming negative thoughts

Today was an okay day. Work was okay. My food intake was pretty good. But I felt down and that led me to feel a bit negative. I don’t know what I felt like that today, but it got me thinking about negative thoughts.

I guess partially this has been put in my head by the Quit Binge Eating podcasts I’ve been listening to. I think it resonates with me a little bit. Maybe it’s because I binge eat? Maybe it’s just human nature to have negative thoughts once in a while? I don’t know.

I’m generally a pretty positive and happy person. When I have my negative or ‘feeling down’ moments they are not overwhelming. I am not depressed, but that’s not what I’m talking about anyway.

It’s those little voices in your head. Today my motivation at work was awful – it took me ages to get through tasks that should have only taken a couple of hours. Usually if I can’t get something done or my motivation is lacking, I drop it and go back to it later. But today I wasn’t motivated to do that. I kept working on the same thing really slowly.

With binge eating when those negative thoughts start they would usually lead me to the fridge or the cupboard. When I got back from work that’s the first thing I did. I stared into the fridge looking for something even though I wasn’t particularly hungry. So I took a breath, shut the fridge and went for a walk. My head is a bit clearer and I feel a bit better, but those nagging thoughts are still there.

It’s hard to describe what I mean by my ‘negative thoughts’. It is not an actual voice that is negative. It is non-specific. It’s just this general feeling of ‘I can’t be bothered’, ‘what’s the point’ or ‘who cares’. I feel good that I was able to get some clarity and not just dive into the fridge. I’ve had moments where I just get home from work and maybe have a glass of wine and eat (whether I binge or not) and my evening is a write-off.

Writing this blog helps too, even though today I feel like I’m a bit all over the place.

So in this blog and in the Brain over Binge book they talk about neural pathways in our brains that lead us to act or think like we have in the past. These neural pathways have been used so much they have a path beaten into them. It’s not that we’re forced to use the path; it’s just what comes natural. I guess it’s like forming new habits. It takes time and for a while it seems unnatural, but eventually it happens if you keep at it.

I’ve been thinking about my negative thoughts and binge eating thoughts with this mind frame. The thoughts are there, but I don’t need to let them take over or affect me.

I decide what is good for me, what I do, how I feel and what I put in my mouth. Even typing that makes me feel better.

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Surround yourself

Over the last year I have done so much reading of online resources, blogs and websites on binge eating. I have watched so many you tube channels to hear of someone’s similar experiences.

It was helpful. I didn’t feel so isolated. I could hear what worked for other people. It gave me inspiration and hope that I could get past my own demons.

But eventually I reached a limit where I felt tired and weighed down. I was focusing too much on the issues that other people had.

I needed positive inspiration!

I started watching some you tube videos and reading the blogs of super healthy people that I admired (I’ve listed some of my faves on the ‘stuff I like’ page). Even though these super healthy people (health nuts shall we call them?) were uber hardcore raw food vegans I find them incredibly motivating. They have inspired me and given me so many ideas and motivation to add more healthy options to my life.

Thanks to them I now eat much more raw food than I ever have. I juice and make smoothies regularly and feel great. I’m sleeping so much better than I used to and this is the first winter that I have gotten through (remember I’m in Australia, so winter has just passed) that I haven’t had a chest infection or some kind of virus that had me laid up at home for a few days. I really put it down to the positive changes I have made to my food intake (I’m not using the d-word!)

I  still struggle with binging, and when I binge I always go for the sweets and the chips. But my regular non-binge food is really healthy (Does anyone else eat like this?)

So my suggestion for anyone fighting their own issues with food, is read up and find out more about what’s going on with you….but also find people who are living lives that you admire!

Here’s some of my favourite inspirational music by the lovely Xavier Rudd…enjoy