For the love of fat

Anyone who has ever read any of my blog entries on this page would know that I have struggled with eating in a balanced, healthy way. I get cravings, I over eat and I emotionally eat. My meals are usually healthy, but snacking is my downfall as is eating at night. For years, it has really been an effort to lose weight. I can lose a kilo or 2, and a couple of years ago I lost 6 kilos. But I quickly put it back on. I can’t remember ever losing more than 6 kilos, instead I have gradually put on weight over the years and a couple of months ago I was the heaviest I have ever been.
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This year I have focused more on mindset and going gently, and about 3 months ago started eating low carb in an effort to lose weight before I turn 40 in a few months. After 2 months of eating low carb, I had lost about 4 kilos and after a friend had huge success with LCHF/keto I decided to ramp things up and give it a go.

The 4 kilos that came off  with moderate low carb, required effort and decent amounts of exercise (I know I know, weight loss is more about food than exercise, but for me it seemed to encourage more consistent weight loss).

Things got really exciting thought when I switched to LCHF/keto and I’ve lost 5 kilos in just under 4 weeks. The process also seemed to be effortless. The switch from moderately low carb to LCHF/keto was easy. I didn’t get the keto flu so many people get, and my food only needed a few tweaks. There are heaps of resources out there and facebook groups for support and food ideas, and I have to say it really is amazing! I always thought that I was one of those people that really struggled losing weight but I think I was doing it all wrong! And I’m not super strict! If I really really feel like it I will have chocolate but I’ll buy a single serve of the darkest chocolate. I also went to a wedding recently and ate everything, carbs and all! But the next day I went right back into it. A lot of people who are into keto would say that is a huge no no and it will throw you out of ketosis, but if I am losing weight and feeling good I don’t care what anyone says I will do what is right for me!

Here are the biggest changes over the last 3 months:

  • Lost 9 kilos in 3 months, with the last 5 eating keto and coming off in under 4 weeks
  • Clothes are looser
  • Energy is more consistent – no afternoon slumps
  • I typically eat 2 meals a day and I no longer snack
  • No more cravings!
  • Mood is more consistent
  • No more achy feet (this is an odd one, I used to get sore feet walking in bare feet but I no longer do. I put it down to the reduced inflammation in my body)
  • Sleeping better (a big one for me!)

For anyone thinking of going keto, I would highly recommend it!

Just remember that you can make it as simple or as complicated as you like! It really doesn’t need to be difficult!

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All you need is…

I need to lose weight.

I hate saying that but if I am completely honest with myself it is true.

It feels uncomfortable saying that for so many reasons.

A big reason is that I have spent so much of my adult life beating myself up over everything and body image is huge for me. I have struggled with binge eating which started because of an isolated traumatic experience and a habit formed that I couldn’t let go. It was compounded further by feelings of inadequacy, striving for perfectionism and black and white thinking.

Saying that I need to lose weight also feels uncomfortable because I am so very very supportive of the body positive movement. I am very aware of the pressure being placed on people – it used to be women, but I think now it’s everyone – to have the perfect body.

But I don’t want to write about the body positive movement, this is my blog and today I’m writing about me. I know I need to lose weight because I have slowly but steadily been putting on weight throughout my adult life. I have just crossed in to dangerous territory where regular shop clothes are starting to not fit. Not every where, but there’s a lot of places that I used to shop in and now I avoid those stores because it’s been so long since anything has fit.

I have just crossed in to dangerous territory where regular shop clothes are starting to not fit.

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I also have a lot of clothes in my wardrobe that I want to fit into again.

Another reason that I want to lose weight is my health. I don’t have the energy I used to – I still do everything I want but I know my general health will be improved if I lighten up a bit.

I also – and I hate to admit this – but I found a fucking stretch mark! The horror! All you women out there – especially you mums, this is not a pregnancy stretch mark. This is a, I’ve put weight on and now it’s affecting my body in ways that I don’t want to admit, stretch mark. And no, I’m not a teenager so this is not about my body just growing up. Insert a big long sigh here.

So I’m short, I’m getting older (late thirties) and I know that it will just get harder for me to lose weight.

I see so many friends just set their mind to losing weight, and they do it. 10kgs – sure no problem! 20kgs – yep, I’ve got this! But me, with my not so distant history of binge eating struggles a bit more to lose weight. I’m sure it’s a combination of what’s going on in my head and what I’ve done to my body slash metabolism means that I find it very hard to lose weight.

So getting back to the point of this blog entry. I do have one.

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All you need is love.

This is a fairly new thing for me. I’m not in love, I’m as single as they come. I’m pretty happy too, although the self love thing is what I don’t have much of. But I’m trying to hold on to it. It’s working. I recently read an article about this lovely woman who lost like 100kgs who realised that you can’t create something positive from a place of negativity.

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I’ve been trying to practice some self love and when I do, when I have compassion and kindness and all things nice, it works. I don’t struggle with my eating. I don’t struggle with procrastination. I’m more likely to see the good in other people and in myself.

Looking after myself and eating healthy food and exercising comes a lot easier when I am doing it from a place of kindness and not because I feel like shit. You know what I used to say to myself. I used to say that I sucked at life. That is so harsh. If ever I heard a friend talking like that I would be shocked and tell them how wonderful they are if only they could see themselves how others did.

I used to say that I sucked at life.

I wonder why it’s so hard for some people and not for others? I imagine some people would read this and think I was completely stating the obvious.

So there you go, all you need is love. Love. Love is all you need.